Hello there, everyone.
It’s about 10:30 am on this muggy Monday morning, though this post won’t probably go up till later this afternoon. I’ve got a lot of different things going on today and I am partly through with them all. I’ve already taken a few photos of the paintings I’ve done over the last three days. There are things I like and dislike about each piece, but we artists are our own worst critics, right? I’ve uploaded them on my Instagram, Pinterest, as well as Facebook pages if you’re at all curious.
It has started to get pretty chilly these last few weeks and serves as a reminder that colder days are coming soon. With the changing of the seasons and all of the beautiful fall colors around me, you would think that my inspiration would be bountiful. Unfortunately, that hasn’t been the case lately, I am very sad to say. I started this journey of artist life only a month ago with so much optimism. I understand that there are going to be plenty of good days as well as bad days, just like with any job, but the way I have felt creatively this past week has been absolutely dreadful.
The last few days have all been very gloomy and I’ve been trying to keep it from bringing my mood down too much, though I am positive the weather hasn’t been helping either. My husband, Jonathon, is going to be leaving for military things for a while and won’t be back home for several months. While I have been staying busy with my art and creative process, I find that this has been a constant distraction. I think the majority of my creative discomfort comes from knowing that he will be leaving soon and thinking about the time we have left. Distractions are never a good thing when you have to do your work from home.
I’ve mentioned several times already on my social media that I have been having a difficult time with my art series, 30 Days of Fall. If you are unfamiliar, it is an art series that I started where I have dedicated myself to creating a new piece of fall-themed art every day. I would then make those art pieces available to you on my online store. I started on the 1st of October and am going to continue till the end of October, the 31st. In the very beginning, I was very excited to start this series and I had a lot of fun on the first painting I did. With each day, however, I had found that it became harder and harder to find new inspiration for a fall-themed painting and felt like I was forcing myself to create things I didn’t really feel like creating. This has been the worst feeling as I believe the best art comes naturally.
Well, Friday afternoon when my husband got home from work, he saw how frustrated I was beginning to get and suggested that I take a break. We decided to go for a little walk so that I could clear my mind and re-group. Whenever I turn myself back to nature, I am always reminded of why I started this journey in the first place. I very much enjoyed our time together and remembered what I hope to never take for granted: the feeling of freedom and hope. We managed to get outside when there were little rays of light making their way through the heavy clouds. This was like a sign from nature herself: a reminder to me that during those dark and gloomy moments, the light will always find its way through. It may take some time but if we have patience and keep working hard, we won’t be disappointed.
Since these photos were taken on Friday, my mood has been drastically better. Over the weekend I just took a deep breath and used that time to relax with my family and loved ones. We hosted a little bonfire at my mother’s house to bid farewell and safe travels to my husband. Friday-Sunday I created a few little paintings capturing the beauty of the fall scenery and I found it to be very therapeutic. It was nice to take a break from my usual abstract and surreal style to just appreciate the beauty that is already out there in real life.
It’s easy to get wrapped up in the every day hustle and bustle of life. It’s so easy, in fact, that we often forget the good things in life. I look back just over a year ago at where I was and am so very thankful to be where I am now. I think back to my feelings of anxiety and claustrophobia; being trapped and stuck in a mundane routine that went against so many things that I truly believe in and am passionate about. I don’t know why nature has this effect on me, but I am so very thankful for that. I’m so thankful for those little rays of light and the freedom my spirit has to really appreciate them.
Thanks for tuning in today. I’ll talk to you guys again very soon. ♥ Quintessa